It’s Tuesday so that must mean changes

It’s such a Tuesday.  It’s SO SUCH a Tuesday that Monday wishes it could be today.

This morning, at butt o’clock am, I went to the Keck Hospital pre-op clinic (aka, START).  Everything went fine.  I learned that my surgery is currently scheduled for 9:30am next Tuesday.  They they wanted to take labs – a CBC, CMP, PTT/PT and Type & Screen.  So I’m like, No.

I get all of those labs drawn tomorrow at Norris for this weeks transfusion.  No need to draw them at Keck when they aren’t used to seeing the numbers presented.  It’s all perspective and they would freak out.  Then I saw the anesthesiologist consult, Chest Xray then I’m out.

Sort of.  In the middle of START, my surgeon called. As I mentioned last night, the ultrasound may not have given her the specific information needed to ensure that the circulation to my arm isn’t cut off.  Well, the ultrasound isn’t good enough.  So now I’m in the process of being scheduled for an MRA.  This is a superspecial MRI that takes the place of an angiogram.  The little bastard tumor that showed up in the PET scan is apparently caged into a vein, that vein has grown little veins and the MRA is being used to determine how to cut out the bastard and keep my arm circulating at the same time.

This sounds like the perfect test to do in light of the situation.  But of course, it wouldn’t be me if there wasn’t a problem.

I go into full blown panic attacks just entering the MRI room. Stop breathing, scream like a crazy person, panic attacks.

In order to get the cancer out, I have to do this scan. I have everyone telling me how they do it and I’ve gotten a lot of good tips.  The one I want is to be completely sedated but I looked at the drugs used for that and I’m not sure that I want to be sedated like that and then go through it again in a few more days.  So I’ve started taking Ativan (like an hour ago).  I will be taking Ativan all day every day until after the scan.

Now I just need a scan date.  It has to be either Thursday or Friday morning.

In addition to the scan, I had to schedule two more doctor appointments.  One for my hematologist tomorrow so that we can talk about a pre/post surgery transfusion plan.  Then Friday, I see Surgeon #2 so he can examine me pre-surgery.  Apparently, he is doing the crazy veiny tumor at the top of my side and Surgeon #1 is doing the tumor a few inches down.

Unless there is an issue with the scan (the issue being ME), I’m still at surgery on Tuesday.

Tomorrow, I see Surgeon #1, my Hematologist and get labs done.  Anything could change.

I really need cake for dinner.


Fight On!











6 Comments on “It’s Tuesday so that must mean changes”

  1. elizabeth lamar says:

    Pam, you are one brave girl. Busy as can be. And through it all your sense of humor emerges which is great. Best coping skill I can imagine. I had an MRI – during that time I reflected on friends, relatives, events, moves, etc. You have been to so many great musicals. Recall them if you can do so without singing because you have to lie still. Perhaps they can sedate you lightly. (I have gotten to love anesthesia!).

    I don’t know if you can speak/understand Spanish, but I have decided that El Niño has no cojones when it comes to SoCal. Thinking of you all week, and next, and wish you the best.


  2. Mindy brown says:

    Believe it or not I look forward to your posts. Your sense of humor never ceases to amaze me. I know it’s been said before but OMG . . . WRITE A BOOK!!! you know I’ll be thinking about you till I know you’ve kicked those rumors butts. Love love love u


  3. Steve Smith says:

    Damn Panic Attacks Grrrrrrrr!!!! Glad you have your Lorazepam my groovy friend. Love you .


  4. Karen Westerfield Stember says:

    Oh Pam…. Well I sure hope you at least got to have cake for dinner! Can’t believe all this crap you have to go through… I am so sorry. I love your forever fight on attitude as that will help you to kick this cancer’s butt once again. Hang in there Pam. Hugs to you and your mom as well.


  5. Barbara DiCarlo says:

    Pam, Wow you need a secretary to to Take care of this shit. Take a deep breath and you will get through this. Love you, Barbara

    Sent from my iPhone



  6. Lori Lewis says:

    Cake for dinner makes everything better(ish)! Hang in there, Trojan! #FIGHTON love you!!!


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