No choice for me.

I’m glad I got everyone up to date last Thursday because, of course, things are different.  Not too bad, but still.

I had an appointment with my ONC last Friday morning.  It ended up being the appointment I should have had weeks ago.  She explained to me that I absolutely needed radiation.  They are worried that since the small lump they found in February needed operated on in May, that my cancer is more fast growing than they would like.  I could just do the Faslodex medicine, but it would take too long to work and I need something that can work now.

So I go back tomorrow to RAD ONC and do the 1.5 hours in the set up chair.  Last week I thought I had a choice and I made my choice.  Apparently, I don’t have a choice.  To make things more interesting, I found another small lump right next to small scar where they just took out a cancer lump.   We are keeping an eye on it; it could just be scar tissue.  But, it made me realize that I have to get zapped.  Grrrr.

It doesn’t help that I still have this weird side pain. My ONC noticed during her exam that I couldn’t take a deep breath so she sent me for a chest xray.  It turns out that I probably have pleurisy – an inflammation of the lining of the lung.   I also have a small amount of fluid in my right lung.  There’s nothing to do about it now but I will get another chest xray in two weeks to see how its doing.  Apparently, this stuff just goes away on its own. Unless it doesn’t.  Blah.

My last CT scan showed that the spot underneath my sternum has grown but just barely – from 6mm to 8mm.  Keeping an eye on that.

I didn’t end up getting my Eligard and Faslodex shots Friday.  My ONC wants me to settle into radiation for a while before I start the other stuff.  So those shots will start in two weeks.  Thank GOD!  My hormones are going crazy with the lack of the old medicine and the start of the newer medicine a few weeks ago.

This week is just radiation with a trip to the endocrinologist on Thursday.   I don’t think my ENDO knows that I’ve even had surgery.  It’s been a while since I’ve seen her.

Nothing else going on.  It’s blasted HOT here in So Cal, so I’ve been mostly inside.  There is a crazy fire up in the Valley called the “Sand Fire”.  It’s nowhere near me, but I have friends that live up that way.  So far, everyone is ok.

A bit of Pam Advice:  If you’re in pain and you take Norco with an Ativan chaser, DO NOT get on the amazon app.  You may accidentally hit purchase instead of delete while playing with your cart.   Luckily it didn’t cost much but I’m now the owner of the “FUN HOME” graphic novel.





3 Comments on “No choice for me.”

  1. elizabeth lamar says:

    You are so great -always keeping your sense of humor. Good advice re Amazon as I love doing some shopping there. I was listening to Tabitha purr yesterday. Realized how similar the word is to prayer. Each word is looking forward to contentment. Must have come from Egypt long ago as cats were nearly gods. Oh, Margot corrected me as the words are in English – teacher speaking. Sounds like you are coping with all the medical stuff. Wish I could do it for you.


  2. Steve Smith says:

    Yeah I dread the day they take me off my meds the withdraws aren’t going to be fun…You are Super Groovy Girl I’m with you Fight the good fight!


  3. Penny Korn says:

    Oh Pam, I sending all my prayers and good wishes for you. I know it must be so hard facing something new every time you have a doctor visit. You are so strong and you will get through this with flying colors, preferably red and gold 🙂 If there is anything I can do for support or help in any way, I am just a phone call away!


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